and why a lot of this?

And why did I try to hide when you’re gone?
And why when I heard your name I blush?
And why did you choose not to care about me?
And why anyway I write this?

A lot of why and no answers with ” cuz”
A lot of sadden and happy not at all
A lot of “don’t care” and the word love it’s gone
A lot of stupid answers when you’re cold!